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Saturday, April 23, 2005

met jane on thurs....really missed her...whoa...we had so much to talk it was almost unstoppable...the whole trip was made lively by our voices...think ppl were irritated with us...but like who cares....jane's live is like mine....while other ppl lives are gradually gettting better and happier...ours is either stagnant or worse....mine is more of the former than the latter....i mean how to enjoy myself when there are so many tests to mug for and so lil time to slack...i'm a slacker by heart lah...argh....i rather get like 2as in a levels and enjoy myself for 2 years like how normal jc ppl are supposed to enjoy than get like 3-4as which is like so unguaranteed and being like bored or depressed....somemore in my current state it's highly unlikely tt i can get 3 to 4 a's..hope tt nxt year i'll be able to cont taking 4 subs...ya i know my expectations are low..but wht can i hope for when every test is a big fat o for me..this vicious cycle of lousy results and lousy moods started every since i changed jc lah....but i shall try not to regret and get on with life...argh...as aptly put by jane..go to sch ...get sad...come home sleep...tt's roughly my life now just tt the get sad part is changed to get sian for me...not to say tt my whole life is depressed however....i still get to have fun lah...like going out and occasionally talking to nice classmates and stuff...gd i'm ending on a happy note and i shall not whine like a prick

and the song goes on